BREAK ME

Whenever a memory of you crosses my mind

Normally I just close my eyes really tight and push you to the back of my head

And When I can still hear you voice echoing somewhere in my head

Normally I just turn the volume up and drown it

but tonight nothing seems to work

as I have been seeing you in almost everything around me

and the songs in the radio just keep reminding me of the times we had

and so I buried my head in the pillow with tears but that made it worse

because it was your side of the bed and the pillow still smelled of you

I reached for my phone

Maybe to call my best friend and pour my heart to her

Maybe to call you with hope that you still cared

and then I saw all the pictures and videos

You looked so perfect…we looked so happy

 

 

There was a time I cherished these memories

But I do not want them anymore

I can’t take the pain they cause me everyday

I am all out of strength to fight you

and I can’t put up a fight anymore

So if you want to tear me apart – go ahead

If you want to crash me over and over – by all means please do

You will be doing me a favour

Because this pain gets worse with every passing second

and no amount of morphine seems to help

so please save me…break me

Break me even more