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Love’s journey

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She met him at a time in her life when she was feeling lost, when every turn she took led her to a world of more misery and more pain and all she wanted, all she hoped for was an abrupt end to it all. She would wander in the town after work, pitch black and cold to the bone looking for a sign or perhaps someone or something to make it all better.

She would look at the happy faces, clutching onto each other, looking into each other’s eyes with fascination, giving themselves over wholly while laughing like children during Christmas and she would weep. She would weep for the love she had given but never truly received, she would weep for the wishes lost on wishing stars and Santa, she would weep for the sickening emptiness that dragged her feet along every day, she would weep for her naive trusting self and the many broken pieces that were once a heart.

Solitude was her best friend; it afforded her the comfort of not allowing anyone to betray her. Music was the bridge across the walls she had built but heartbreaking ballads and sonnets ensured that she never walked across it, that and pouring her sadness into scribbling verse after verse of poetry nearly as dark as Edgar Allan Poe.

Routine kept her sane and she stayed clear of anything that elicited any other emotion other than melancholy and so it surprised her when she started looking forward to the visits of the sexy Spanish man in a black scarf at the cafe. Every time the bell rang after 4pm she would quickly glance at the door hoping to see him walk in. He would run his hand through his beautiful hair while flashing his perfect teeth in a smile that warmed her heart then proceed like a thoroughbred stallion towards his friends. In her eyes he was simply magnificent.

She wasn’t a beauty queen, hell she wasn’t anything special and so it surprised her when two years down the line he still looked at her, eyes full of fascination. She didn’t have much to offer but he wasn’t just looking to take but to give too and this helped her blossom. She was lost when she met him but he ensured that she remembered how wonderful it felt to be truly, deeply, madly loved.

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BETTER PLACE

I guess this is the part that I should cry out loud,

The part that I hold onto my broken heart

while I stumble and tumble

Trying to find me,

Trying to find my way home

but end up calling you,

Begging you to please –

Please love me like you used to

Just a little bit more

I guess, I am not that weak anymore

Don’t judge me,

I know you know

We all know how it feels when we lose,

But we also know we have to choose

Whether to embrace the gloom

To live in a vacuum

Of our own making,

Or to assume

Our own happiness

Away from bleakness.

When you left,

I tortured myself with thoughts of you and I

I relived all the good times gone by

and bad times depending on how drunk I was

But I know as I was out there getting cold

You were buiding your life with someone unforetold

I could picture the two of you sitting in front of the fireplace

with flowers in the vase

that I bought you

Telling her jokes that I told you

While making promises to him

Promises that you still owe me

But that was then

I guess we were never meant to be

And if I am honest

I guess I am in a better place

HELP ME FORGET

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I don’t know who you are

But it doesn’t really matter

I don’t know where you are going

But I really don’t care

As long as you take me away

Far, FAR away from here

While you are at it

Please don’t make any pit stops

Till we are far away

As I don’t want to think of any memories I made in this town

I just need you to make it stop

Please, please, please make it stop

I have no idea how much longer I can hold on

The pain is too much I cannot withstand it

It hurts so bad that it forces me to my knees

If I could, I would pull this heart right out

Because It not only hurts so much

But it also hurts with every breathe I take

And if you can’t make it stop

At least help me forget

DROWNING

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For how long are we going to play this heartbreaking game?

I cannot keep the door open any longer

In the hope that you will come back sooner than later.

I cannot suffer any more because of you

While you claim to be trying to finding yourself

in Ann, Eve, Chantelle, Angie and Faith or is it Flora.

For how long will this stupid thing beat for you?

I try to keep it distracted with pain

So it can be too pre – occupied for you

Therefore I perform self – distracting activities

And when that doesn’t work

I embrace my dearest friends alcohol and drugs

Who dutifully make me numb

Numb is good, numb is bliss

But numb wears off and I am overwhelmed

As all the emotions I had tried to evade

Come rushing down like a broken water well

And right there and then

I’m drowned

FOR YOU I WOULD

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If I had a boom box

I would play it loud outside your house

As I shout without a trace of care in the world

For everyone and anyone to hear

Of how happy you make me

And of how I am hopelessly crazy about you

If I had all the colours in the world

I would paint each and every corner

Just to show all and sundry

That you are the reason behind my smile

Because I am grateful to have you

If I could climb the tallest mountain

Or swim through the vast waters

Run after the fastest creature

Or walk through the unending desserts

I would, just for you

So you could see that I mean it when I say,

That I want and need you in my life

IN HER SHADOWS

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Do you see her when you look at me?

Do you wish it were her arms around you when I hold you?

Do you hate my voice and wish you had a mute button

Or that it were hers you hear instead of mine?

Do you close your eyes and wish she were next to you

every time you turn and it is just me laying beside you?

 

When we go out, do you relive your dates with her?

Is your favourite restaurant actually hers

and that you only take me there wishing you will bump into her?

Or do we sit at her favourite table by the window 

and you spend the whole night remembering the times she were there?

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Do you tell me jokes you used to tell her

and when I don’t laugh like she used to, do you get sad?

Do you call me names you used to call her

and silently moan her name when we make love?

Do you wish I were good a kisser like her

and that I would touch you in ways that only she did?

 

Do you like my hair straight

Or did you tell me to do it like so because it’s how she liked hers?

Do you not introduce me to your friends

because I’m not as worthy as her?

Do you wish she would take you back?

 

It should be me putting that sexy smile on your beautiful face

It should be me you think of me when you are lonesome

It should be me who drives you crazy because I give you good loving

It should be me you look at and see a future

It should be me as…as it sucks to always be in her shadows

 

MY OH MY

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When I close my eyes and visualize you

I get shivers, a good kind of shivers

I imagine how I love taking my time with you

Exploring every aspect of your body

Over and over and over and over again!

I can feel your taste on my lips

and the urge I usually get to pull you closer

My oh my the things you make me feel

 

I run my hands softly on your beautiful face

and outline your succulent lips

as I whisper in your ears how much I want you

You moan gently in agreement, making me want  you more

I bite your neck gently just the way you like

and lick you slowly down to your plum breasts

 

My heart beats faster as I put your nipple in my mouth

While I rub the other with my hand

Then I play with the other with my tongue

and you reward me with a whimper of pleasure

I continue my exploration down to your stomach

By now you are practically nudging me to go lower

But I tease you longer making you beg even more

 

I kiss the insides of your thighs

and circle around your beautiful flower

I can tell you’d missed me as you are already wet…I like that

When I finally run my tongue up and down inside you

You can’t help but cry out and dig your nails into me

 

I bury my tongue dipper…damn you taste so good

I continue licking following your body’s rhythm

but always stopping when you are almost there

you beg me not to stop

and when I finally drive you to the edge

You cum so hard it hurts

and I hold you tight till your body stops trembling

and we start all over again